Absolutely Funny (No)Ghost Story

25 Oct 2009, Sunday

You know what, I just happened to watch some random episode of 康熙來了 on Friday. Following that, i decided to track and watch every episode starting from 01/01/2009. And the 2nd episode has something that tickles me so much that i absolutely have to share it!! HAHAHA :) I'm referring to 6th minute onwards of the following video... Super hilarious!!! :)




What a "Ghost Story"!!! HAHAHAAA!!!!

I just haven't... talked to you yet? Hahaa~

24 Oct 2009, Saturday

Tis' a happy single's song shared by Phyllis on facebook, and OH boy, did I like it! :)



Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

I'm Not Surprised Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times, I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up And Then I Let Myself Down.

Bridge1
I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

Chorus
And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Get So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

Bridge2
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility Mmmmm ......

Chorus

They Say All's Fair And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right And We'll Be United

Bridge2
Chorus
Chorus

Oh Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love ..... I Just Haven't Met You Yet :)

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Lemme just leave a msg for my future gf then......

Hey darling~ I just haven't met you yet, or maybe I have, but I haven't talked to you yet. But its ok, I love you~ Thanks for filling my life with so much love and happiness! :)

LOLs~ Sounds funny! And deluded, but fun!! Hehe ;) Consider it as saving a point for the future la huh~~~ Ha ha ha xD

Men's brains vs women's brains

12 Oct 2009, Monday

I saw this video quite some time back and told myself i absolutely have to share this, but apparently i'd been absent from my blog for too long before my previous little rants of the past few days. Luckily somebody reposted it on facebook which reminded me. It's really hilarious and it explains some things men do that women don't understand, and the reason why men provide help or advice rather than just sit back and listen. Funny! :)




I love the nothing box!! :)

"Proof" of my OCPDness?

11 Oct 2009, Sunday

This was the mail sent to my groupmates as the vent of my frustrations at that time. I actually wrote this after receiving a msg from the Always-D-grade-but-not-humble-enough-to-accept-others'-input groupmate. I think it's actually quite entertaining, if you're not on the receiving end of it, hahaa

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Hi fellas, As texted to CM, i will not be much involved in the remaining Q3d after that day's discussion on 3a, b and parts of c.

However, I would like to provide these little pieces of advice in case you don't already know them. Pls take it from a constructive point of view, not personally like the other time round.

1. Copy pasted work will not win you many marks, plagiarism rate will flag out high and, i won't say all, but certainly some or many lecturers do take these stuff rather badly. It shows lack of effort that gives the perception of little consideration before putting in the contents.

2. I have tried each time to put on a mask of anonymity for the company name, for your own sake. Each time, it seems to be rejected and i do not understand why, despite having provided proof in one of my previous mails from lecturers that it is not fucking necessary to put in a company name.

3. Word count are just guidelines? Maybe for some lecturers, but not all. For example, the lecturer in the class T613 is the type who has specifically mentioned she will deduct marks for overshooting word count. Given that our very own lecturer is relatively new and he follows the slides so closely during his lectures, do you think he will treat it as "just a guideline"? Think again.

4. Pls don't take everything or indeed anything as "already understood by lecturers". There IS a reason why we're fucking students. We are supposed to show that we understand these stuff in our work. Otherwise, might as well hand in a blank piece of work? Don't you think lecturers already know just about everything in the TMA?

5. It's the subtle differences that separates one grade from the next. Perhaps every single individual thing i mentioned will seem trifle or matters little to one or more of you, but they do add up, next thing you know, you've shifted from one grade to the next, then to the next, and to the next again. Sounds familiar?

Thus far, you guys might think i've been "difficult to work with". If that is the case, i apologise for offending in any way. However, i wish to highlight that i only wanted the best for the 3 of us. Sometimes when you guys have certain views that contradicts my own, i might argue my points, but ultimately when you guys manage to convince me, i do alter the answers to the point of our discussion. Each time i put in an input, it is because i think it is an improvement to what was already done. And i emphasize the point that in the case of 3a and 3b, i did not OVERHAUL the fucking answers. I merely made small little tweaks here and there which i deemed necessary. It would all have been very well if you guys were able to provide satisfying relevant reasons for not using them, but that day, i heard nothing except stuff like "looks the same, so use mine lor", "aiyah, wordcount is just a guideline", "you dun understand, doesn't mean lecturer don't understand". There you go, nothing constructive whatsoever.

Lastly, i agree with Eric that grades are not everything, not everyone is good at what they do. I have never needed my groupmates to be damn good, and i always respect each individual's work, but i hate it when ppl are not humble enough to accept it if and when ppl tell them their work is not good enough in some ways, not to mention rejecting inputs from others without good reason. I also hate being taken for a ride, and i hate knowing that the efforts i put in for us were rejected without good reason but merely with nothing except scorn and with much spite. Pls know that everything i put in, i am merely striving to improve whatever good work we already have, for us. Unlike, perhaps some ppl are thinking, it has nvr been for the pleasure of trying to feel superior to others or to show that i'm good or what. FYI, i do not think i'm good enough, but i DO take pride in what i do, and i do them in the name of good honour and responsibility towards everyone of us. I believe i have explained myself satisfactorily.

Lastly, i wish to reiterate that i have decided to be obedient and bear no intentions whatsoever of standing in the way of Chee Ming who has always expressedly shown an extraordinary inerest in completing Q3 by himself. I only ask that you guys look into the advice i have given and give them a little consideration.

Good day to you all.

Your fucking obedient soldier
Yow Heng
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Maybe somebody can help me by commenting whether i was displaying OCPD symtoms in this email? But on the other hand, how can anyone ever be efficient without having some degree of OCPD symptoms? Hahaa =p And how come i didn't display any of these when i was doing work with ppl like Joey, Jan, Xiaohei, etc? If i'm suffering from OCPD, it should apply to all and not only to certain ppl right???

Something about me that's... Part2 (removed)

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(because i don't really like the wordy post, wahahaa)

Something about me that......

10 Oct 2009, Saturday

Something's definitely wrong with me. For some reason i haven't yet been able to identify, i seem to be getting on people's nerves recently.

Just last week, i had this conflict with one of my groupmates that explains my msn comment at that time. It also led to me writing a rather rude email with certain expletives. I was really irritated because one of them actually copied pasted something directly from a website as an answer to one of our assignment questions, and then when i tried to help by paraphrasing slightly and cutting down on the word count, i actually get rude retorts from the bugger. I'd understand if proper reasons were given for rejecting my share of input, and i didn't even OVERHAUL his answers, it was just little tweaks here and there.

And then yesterday, a good friend of mine actually had an indirect go at me. I'm not sure, but i seem to get the idea that i've irritated him recently him through some fault of mine that i haven't yet identified. *shrugs* I've decided let that pass though, we're friends, after all, so i'll take it lying down for once.

This also gets me thinking about the little incident between fishy and me earlier this year. Something's definitely very wrong with me. Perhaps i'm too sensible for my own good, so much so that i impose my thoughts on others, which they don't like?

*Sigh* It's terrible when goodwill somehow finds its way to become a source of irritation for others.

Good thing is, i'm a terribly optimistic person, so i'm going to forget about all this pretty quickly. Attending a wedding dinner later!! *Sigh* Another nice gal going down the aisle... *chuckles*

Speaking of weddings, i love this wedding proposal!! :)



How cool is that!! Damn nice!!! :)

Super funny and cute first heartbreak

19 Sep 2009, Saturday

It's 2am+ and I gotta wake up early later for work, but I really really have to share this!!
Damn super funny!!! HAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!!!!



I think the video editor really had a good sense of humour to add Zigeunerweisen after the point of rejection and silence ... And the poor kid was wailing "Why!? Why!!?" in Jap after that!
(which explains the "wei xia mi" floating down the video) HAHAHAHAHAA!!!
What drama! :)

Not Emo-ing but loving emo songs :)

12 Sep 2009, Saturday

I'm not emo-ing at all, and I very seldom go into emo state, but I really like emo songs. HAHA

I just love songs that I can relate to. It doesn't have to be my own story, sometimes I listen to a song and I'll think of a friend and his/her plight or something, or some past experiences, or what I perceive to be their experiences. I dunno... I dun emo, but these songs really get to my heart, does that make sense? Hurhurr~ =p

Having said that, i'll admit i'm very partial to Eason Chan's songs and Lin Xi's lyrics. They're really emo, but really nice and applies to situations as well. The stories I personally experience, or see, or perceive unravels around these songs from time to time. And then i'm really lucky because sometimes i get (new to me) nice old songs into my song vocab and i get all excited over them that i just can't stop listening. So fun! Music is fantastic, it is it is it is~! =D It's my form of Harry Potter magic in this non-magical community of ours. Some songs are like the cheering charm; they make me so happy, think I'm Yours and In the Mood. Some songs tear me apart like crucio; think Tank's If i become a memory, and Damien Rice's The blower's daughter. Some songs do touch me so as well, think Endless love. I'm still waiting to discover my dose of Felix Felicis though ;) I want a song that makes me feel lucky~!! :)

Here's a dose of "Crucio"~
*Caution Note*
Dun emo cos of it huh ;)

Wish they didn't add in the scenes from Closer into the MTV though, cos the original scenes seem to relay the story of the song much better :l
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The blower's daughter




Lyrics
And so it is just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me most of the time

And so it is the shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes... (off you)

And so it is just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time

And so it is the colder water
The Blower's Daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes... (off you)

(From gal)
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind... my mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new ......
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Here's the live version... I think it's so full of feel and super super nice! ;)

Gibberish

23 August 2009, Sunday

Mmm~ I realised it's been quite some time since i've last written about myself, so here we go. Today's another particularly alone (not lonely) day, spent living like a retiree. Well, at least it feels that way to me. Sleeping till whatever time i like, doing nothing in particular except reading newspapers, watching TV, and sitting around trying to get fat, nothing strenuous, nothing too exciting, nothing to stir my emotions, and craving for Roti Prata. Easily contented, is Ah Heng. Well, perhaps grandchildren running around would be nice, hur hurr~ =D

So i started wondering... Since when did i start living and feeling this way? I know for sure sometimes people feel life can be so unfair, i do that sometimes. Believe it or not, i was born into a poor family, once being touted as a "野孩子" without proper manners, skinny, scrawny, sickly little boy that i was, hot-tempered, conceited, haolian, haughty, overconfident, unrealistic, irritating, shunned by kids of "proper" upbringing, given dirty looks by sec sch teachers, humiliated once even, getting slapped by one of them. If i did well for a piece of homework like composition, it was because i'd got a "JC friend" to do that assignment for me. Damn adults, they think they know everything. (I proved her wrong and scored one of the highest marks for composition during exams later, anyway) Ah, worse still, the presence of those perfect little beings, rich, well educated, well behaved, loved kids (i supposed i meant given by the same teachers), cute, good grades, no trouble. Pay attention to them, leave the sarcarsm and berating for those hopeless ones.

Life isn't fair. Expecting life to be fair is like expecting the Lion not to eat someone because he/she is vegeterian.

I'm happy i chose to change. I'll skip the boasting since it takes too much explaining and you all know me for the person i am now, hur hurr ;)

Ten Years

19 August 2009, Wednesday

Short Dinner with Kuang, Zhaorong, Sio, and Jolene
It wasn't anything much, but i really feel so happy and glad to have met some NPS peeps today, even if it's just a short dinner and small talk. I'm also glad that apparently i haven't lost my good sense of humour, Thanks Sio for being my guinea pig and scapegoat *shake* "Do you feel anything?" ha ha haa ;) Oh~ so fun~ but we forgot to take pictures... Mustn't forget that next time.

Interpreting Songs
This (the gist of the Lyrics) was actually what i've gone thru before.
Sometimes, it's not until songs are interpreted in another language that you realise how meaningful those lyrics can be... Have fun trying ;)

十年 - 陳奕迅 (Eason Chan)
Music: 陳小霞 Lyrics: 林夕

如果那兩面個字沒有顫抖
我不會發現　我難受
怎麼說出口 也不過是分手

如果對於明天沒有要求
牽牽手就像旅遊
成千上萬個門口 總有一個人要先走

Bridge
懷抱既然不能逗留
何不在離開的時候
一邊享受　一邊淚流

Chorus
十年之前
我不認識你 你不屬於我
我們還是一樣
陪在一個陌生人左右
走過漸漸熟悉的街頭

十年之後
我們是朋友　還可以問候
只是那種溫柔
再也找不到擁抱的理由
情人最後難免淪為朋友

Bridge
Chorus

直到和你做了多年朋友
才明白我的眼淚
不是為你而流
也為別人而流

Ten Years - Eason Chan
If those two (spoken) words weren’t trembling
I wouldn't have realised that I'm hurting
No matter how it is phrased
It's still simply a break-up

If we have no expectations for tomorrow
Holding hands would be just like a tour
(With) hundreds, thousands of doors (*with so many choices)
Inevitably one (of us) will leave first

Bridge
Since embrace cannot be retained
Why not at the time of parting
Savour (the feeling) while we're shedding tears

Chorus
Ten years ago
I didn't know you; you didn't belong to me
Weren't we likewise
Staying at the side of some stranger
Walking through the streets that slowly became familiar

Ten years from now
We will be friends; (we) can still greet each other
It's only that, that kind of warmth;
will never again, find us a reason to embrace
In the end, it's hard for lovers not to turn into just friends

Bridge
Chorus

It's not until I've been friends with you for many years
That I understand, my tears
If not shed for you
Will likewise be shed for another person

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When difficulties arise... when bad things happen; I know it's difficult to go thru and easy for me to say, but the best we can do for ourselves is still to adapt (to the current situation), move on, seek, search, and find happiness in other ways that suit us...

Another a la carte Posting

11 August 2009, Tuesday

Just wanna share some thoughts that occurred to me randomly at different times this past 2 weeks~ And another nice video clip ;)

Practicality vs Romancing
The thought begins when one of my best friends Jimmy told me sometime last week (or was it the week before? bah~ nvm, haha) that he'd just proposed to his girlfriend of 2 years. No, this isn't about the details of that proposal (not that i really know~ Hur hurr). It's given me something to ponder over though~ Having heard many versions of (sg) couples' relationships from strangers to friends to bf-gf to husband and wife, i've found something that seems...... weird to me. And i'm kind of amazed how de-sensitized to this the people of our country have become. Read on.

So goes the story of the typical courtship in Singapore.
Guy meets gal (or vice versa, sui bian la huh), they develop good impressions for each other (or they bicker) and fall in love, they get together, and after a few years, either "it's about time", or out of the blue they decide to try applying for a house together. Whoops!! They actually DO get the home they applied for. Ok, maybe after two or three tries, whatever. They make some plans for their future, the days roll by, guy proposes to gal, she says yes (hello? was she going to reject anyway?), they go for ROM, and when everything's in place they have their wedding dinner, hopefully they live happily ever after. Ewww~ Nice and practical, Familiar? ;)

Now listen to MY preferred version of sequence of events. Guy meets gal (or vice versa, sui bian la huh), they develop good impressions for each other (or they bicker) and fall in love, they get together. After some time, guy decides that gal is the right person he wants to be with for the rest of his life. He decides, he prepares, he springs a surprise proposal! Wowww, what courage, to propose not knowing if gal is gonna accept. (If gal loves guy enough to want him for the rest of her life) Gal is pleasantly surprised! She's gonna love guy much much more for this surprise anyway, she probably accepts on impulse, but she's never, ever, going to forget this. She'll still decide later that it was the right decision anyway. They're fiance and fiancee now. There's this fresh, new wave of mushy mushy muack muack lovey dovey tian mi qi with each other. Then they make plans together for their new home, family, whatever. This, my friends, is what i call romancing to a marriage. Just look at the difference!! I'm sure you all get what i'm trying to say, Hahaa ;)

Perceived no-needs and dun-wants
Ok, so much for being a hopeless romantic, Hahaa. Next thing concerns pretty much about myself. It was a weekday while i was on a bus on my way home. Was looking at cars zooming past and for some reason, i started wondering why i'd never found being able to drive as something important or indeed, a need at all. Truly told, it wasn't even halfway up my wants list. How the hell did i grow up to be so different from others?

So i did some checks on myself. Hell, numerous times and occasions over the years, i'd complained to myself about darn Singaporeans driving when they could've just taken the public transport and lighten the traffic (of course la, i was probably anxious about possibly being late whenever this comes to mind), keep the air cleaner, and reduce the number of traffic accidents. Moreover, i find cars to be an expensive luxury item, not to mention the ever increasing ERP and petrol prices. And i tell you what, Add to that my principle of not "doing something just because everyone else thinks it's necessary", or quite simply my dislike of social conformity without first convincing myself of it's logic or necessity.

And then my bus reached Old Boon Lay Shopping Centre. This was when i realised the real underlying reason for not feeling the need to drive throughout all these years. I live walking distance to a Shopping centre surrounded by coffeeshops, hawker centre, accessible transport, 24hr stores, etc. I can get just about anything i need or want so easily. If i'd lived somewhere any less convenient all these years... needing, perhaps, to take a bus just to get some food, or tidbits, or groceries and stuff... i think i would have wanted to drive long ago... Time to change my thinking, i suppose ;) And they say an inch of gold couldn't buy one "an inch" of time... Owning a car does invariably save one lots of time, so i guess it's gonna worth it after all.

Just How did it take me so long to realise this!? Haiyo~~~ LOL

The EriAm Sisters
Honestly, i was quite astonished and pleasantly surprised when i first saw this video of The EriAm Sisters. I think it was probably their first appearance on American's got Talent [edit] just recently. And man! They're really fantastic!! ;) And then i also appreciated the way the audience stood up and clapped/cheered/grooved along once they realised how talented the young girls were, God, they really DO know how to appreciate and enjoy watching raw talent on display!! Really, trust me, take some time to watch this, it'll be well worth your time :)
And Ooo!! I love this song!! ;)



Quite strangely, i felt so touched and so proud of them for their parents everytime i watch this...
Hahaaa :p Weird

[edit] You might want to watch with much higher resolution and completeness from intro to judges comments from the following link... Pity embedding's disallowed for this one :p Skip the first part about the freak (it's funny with the emcee though hahaa) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQg3MrMLLRw

Rants vs Good stuff

02 August 2009, Sunday

Owww~ I've really lost it, haven't I?

First thing to remark after my last post, NO, i shall not blog more frequently, because somehow i find myself soooo drained of energy everyday. Every so often i think of blogging, mostly when i see or hear something intriguing, and yet i'd decide against it due to my lethargy. Mmmmm~~~ I'm really getting old and feeling it. I miss all the energy and drive i've had as a youth. And yet, "Youth" doesn't seem that long ago, if i look at it in that sense.

Alright, i should kill the culprits of all these lethargy - late nights that mean i sleep only about 4-5hrs everyday? But i guess it still has to do with... age. And then there's also that organization that's world class in starving one's brains of wits, drive and optimism. Zzzzzz......... Hahaa. Alright do me a favour and don't ask me about it - really, nothing bad has happened.

Social life. Honestly, HELL, i miss everyone. I miss all my NPS friends, poly friends, ITE friends, soccer friends. Human beings are social animals - we crave friendship and company. Hmm~ Why don't I jio ppl out, sms, or call anyone pro-actively anymore? Why am i so different from the Ah Heng everyone's accustomed to????

*Alarm bells sounding out*
tneh! tneh! tneh! tneh! Signs of age spotted!! Signs of age spotted!! Grumpyness from Ah Heng, Grumpyness from Ah Heng!!

OK OK i know!!! Enough about my own complaints, hehe. Now for the good stuff~

Good stuff 1:
If you're a follower of 超級星光大道, i suggest you watch this Taiwan Chinese New Year variety show - 牛轉乾坤旺旺來. The following is a link to the first of 24 videos... It's super nice!! :) If you've the patience to watch the whole thing, you'll find quite a number of fantastic performances. There's those cheeky comments, and things like Lin You Jia vs Xu Jiaying kind of stuff, performances from dance groups like the reigning cheerleading champions of Asia. Fantastic! Then again, there's 24 videos, hahaa :p Stick to the clips that start with 中視除夕特別節目 for better sound though!



I absolutely love these kind of Happy shows!! :)

Good stuff 2:
I'm lucky because recently i've found quite a number of songs that i really really like. Mainly it's songs from the Band called "Queen". I think everyone knows them for songs like "We will rock you" and "We are the champions", but these aren't really their best songs, at least not in my opinion. Not that i've heard many of their songs, but i listened to a few due to one of the performances in 牛轉乾坤旺旺來.



I really really like songs like "I was born to love you", "Don't stop me now", "The great pretender", "Bicycle race", "Lazing on a sunday afternoon". There's many more of course, but i can't elaborate cos i haven't heard them all. But i'm not embedding the videos of this band because erm, they seem quite gay. Damn it. Well, still, the songs are nice anyway. On a side note: Shut up, Edward Cullen - by evidence of these songs, music in the 70s weren't all that bad.

Good stuff 3:
This song by Mayday, or 五月天 - 你不是真正的快樂 The lyrics are simply fantastic, especially the last parts about letting go and living a renewed life. I'm sure that sets many people thinking about their lives and experiences they've been through, well, people who notice the lyrics the way i do, anyway.



五月天 你不是真正的快樂

人群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了

你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

Good stuff 4: (But only if you're an Arsenal fan like me)
I've watched Arsenal in the Emirates cup match yesterday, they were fantastic!! Jack Wilshere was super super remarkable - He can dribble, he has that rare vision to create opportunities with through passes, and, my oh my, he can shoot too! i tell you he's the Fabregas who can dribble and shoot, and soon he'll be Arsenal's next Dennis Bergkamp and the answer to Barca's Lionel Messi - you mark my words. Merida seems to be a potential to fill the void left by Flamini, cos from what i saw he was quite an aggressive player who's totally not shy of challenges, though he wasn't employed in the defensive midfield position. Overall Arsenal was simply fantastic!!

Clips of Jack Wilshere here, if you're interested. But don't waste your time if you're not a soccer fan.



Good stuff 5: (Again, only if you're a soccer fan)
And speaking of Dennis Bergkamp!! My 心中的神. Watch his goals, then skills and assists. The timing of his through passes!! Whoa, the stuff shown in the video just gets better and better with each second. He is super Fantastic!! It's no coincidence that Arsenal's stopped winning things ever since he retired. Sigh~ Really wish he's still young and still playing in the team lorrr~




I say all these are good stuff, but then again it's not everyone who appreciates things the way i do!! HAHA :p Conceited pig, Ah Heng is... Hehe ;)
Whoaaa long post again after so long, compensation effect, i guess? *chuckles* Ok! Till next time!!

Random things

06 July 2009, Monday

I'm irritating myself with the fact that i'm just so so sooooo goooood at procrastinating the things that i wanted myself to do despite having gotten everything ready ages ago. So instead of gettings things done and clearing out the original mess, i find myself staring at those prepared stuff which have now turned into another bundle of mess for me to sort out... i.e till the day i finally gather enough resolve to finish what i was doing in the first place... which is....... awww man~!! i dunno when!! *chuckles*

I seem to have gotten really good at snapping out of my moods and thoughts these days. No more second guessing at what could have been, or whatever! Sounds good huh~ heh heh

Awww this guy is really fantastic on the violin....



I have a new laptop!! It's a Toshiba M300-D4320, snapped it up during the PC show for just $1699 and i'm really pleased with it. No more getting irritated with my slow-like-tortoise Acer laptop! And you know what, how silly i can get sometimes. I'd gone to collect my laptop from the Harvey Norman outlet in JP, and i walked out of the shop with 2 boxes of stuff. It actually took me about half an hour to realise that the blur sales assistant had passed me 2 laptops - not just mine but also another customer's pre-ordered one. WOWWW 2 laptops for the price of one, good deal huh? Budden just like years ago when i had walked out of the Yamaha shop with that "free" guitar cos of the shop assistants' cock up, i was honest (not to forget stupid) enough to make the trip to return the stuff. Sigh~ no wonder good things nvr happen to me. With those noble goody boy bones in me and this wonderful world where the good and the kind always suffer more and the bad are privileged with more comforts... (hahaa!!).

Silly me no. 2 - It actually took me 2 days of getting my hands on this laptop before i realised that it has a built-in-webcam!! Wuahahaa~ hosay liao lorr~~~ lots of fun to come with it!! Yea i know some of you are saying aiya same as using camera mah, but it's the convenience and ease of filming the videos and playing them back immediately on the laptop, you see~ More than once, i fell asleep in bed using my laptop, and then there was this once when i woke up from a nap and decided there and then to film myself playing the ukulele since both the instrument and the (still powered on) laptop were within grabbing distance... So funny!!!! HAHAHA :p Shall post some of those videos soon if i can help it, especially those NG ones, hehehe :)

Last Saturday, went to pay my school fees and collect my course materials at SIM before heading for this BBQ near Yuyun's place. We'd reckoned that since Sio's back and Yuyun's flying back to Perth come friday, we shd meet to catch up. The party consisted of Yuyun, Sio, Kuang, Qimei, Weiling, Licong, Jiayan, and Hoepin, and another group of Yuyun's friends. Was really nice to see Yuyun and Sio again, being their usual selves, although i didn't recognise Yuyun until someone pointed her out to me from about 2 metres out, hahahaa~ Oh man~ she looked quite different to me at first with her now long hair la :p And she was really buay tahan with the first words James (who was there for only a few minutes) said to her after like what, 4 years plus of not meeting each other? And you know what, Yuyun and Sio are quite unique in the way they speak, their mannerisms, etc., and it just feels so nice to see them again, to observe them; how they move, what they do, the way they speak. Oh I dunno~ I think it's the sense of familiarity with them that makes me feel really happy to see them again, and their uniqueness makes this familiar feeling all the more magnified, i guess. Sio is just...... Sio again, which he hadn't been during the last few times he was with us. Doing all the crazy but whacky stuff, like smoking that half metre long "cigar", HAHAHA. Must be the effect of my first chants of simultaneous nonsenses when he'd just arrived giving him such a electrifying culture shock that's he's himself again, hehe!! *looking smug*

Ohhh i met Shiyi while we were waiting for our bus back at the end of the BBQ...... She mentioned something about Zhonghan asking about gathering and that she's deferred him to me to organise although i've never heard anything about it yet. Hmm~ Maybe soon!! ;)

Man~~~ i should really blog more often so that my posts dun get so wordy... yes? *chuckles* Well, we'll see about that :)

little updates~ ;)

Wuah hah~!!

Gone for 3 weeks, but that doesn't mean i've had nothing on my mind to write! Just no time at first, and then the things that followed in quick succession changed my mood just as quickly, so it's hard to want to write those initial stuff when you're not feeling them anymore. Sentimentalist me... *chuckles* Ok this is going to be quite wordy~ Bear with me!! *Growls like a bear*

1. After meeting Wanling (lunch), JY(Dinner), and Zhaorong(Rollerblade) last month, i finally caught up with Dj (supper) earlier this month. Kuang, Edward and XiaoheiJac goes without mention because we meet every so often, Hahaa =p That completes the catching up i wanted to do for the time being.

2. Organising that damned BBQ - Somehow i nvr got around to doing it...... *chuckles* I got lazy and distracted ever since the online booking system rejected my emails for the bookings - i wonder why...? Awww Man~ Could this be the year that we miss out even on the BBQ gathering that we have every year?

3. Soccer is so fun!! So far, my soccer kAs include my colleagues, ex-colleagues, poly friends, ITE friends, sec sch friends, and their friends' friends. Shiok huh!! People from almost all walks of my life!! ;) Whatever blues i have for whatever reasons, soccer clears them all for me... maybe except for the blue-blacks la!! Hehe!! =p

4. One secret that i'm not ready to confess or write about although it was very much the basis of my moods for the past 1 month or so... Reading others' old blogs, and looking at old pics sparked this. What would it have been like if......? Just wondering about the lost times. Hahaa.

5. NPStrings clubhouse - *sigh* Was there again on the day that Ngee Ann organised the farewell dinner for Blk 73 with some of the rest. So many things still exist there that brings back the memories and sentiments in me. The very first of those things that i noticed was when i made the turn up that first flight of stairs from canteen 1 to the second flight -> The flip-flop sign on the door that tells us if the clubhouse is open/closed. Can't really remember if there was already one when i joined, but i had something to do with either installing it or modifying it to what it was.

Whoa~ The feeling of moving nearer to the clubhouse with the anticipation of wondering who's already inside that slightly open door. There used to be numerous variations, of course - Kuang sleeping inside, or Hongzhi and Marcus getting ready their laptops to play warcraft, or Peiyu with our endless smackings of each other, or big-eyes Jiaying with our loud exclamations of each other's names followed by my *poke* while she does the "punch*, or someone playing the guitar/violin inside, many many many more. So, who or what would it be this time? Could it be that some among us were early? Or would it be a group of juniors that i wouldn't recognise? *opens door* Aww~ it was only Yuanliang... who'd only just arrived before me.. where were the rest? Hahaa :p

Casually chit-chatting with him while waiting for the rest, i browsed thru the photos and albums, wondering at the same time if i should confiscate the whole pack of our photos for my own keeps. NPS clubhouse still smells the same despite being messy and vandalised beyond description. Aww~ the feel of the place. Was actually really glad that i'd reached earlier than the rest, because for the last time, i had the privileged of feeling and seeing the clubhouse slowly fill up with the many people i'm so fond of. I'd only managed a few minutes of playing the guitar by myself in the clubhouse after dinner, and really really wished i'd stayed there longer. Something in me loves and yearns for the company and homeliness of the place itself, perhaps even more so than the company of friends that come with it.

The place had the markings of us all over it. Like the flip flop sign i'd mentioned earlier. I also noticed the unplugged extractor fan in the inner room, remembering with a smile that it was us who'd managed to get them installed (Tianle especially) despite not getting the aircons we'd wanted for the instruments. And i seem to vaguely remember that that one of the two extractor fans was unplugged because it had caused a short circuit of some sorts after i'd graduated. With the mess the clubhouse was in, memories of our cleaning sessions sparked an inner desire to have another spring cleaning session where me and Tianle would virtually throw half the things out as trash... *chuckles*

Going into the music room, i fervently wished that Edward, Tianle, Jinwen and co. were there as well so that we could have our last games of clubhouse soccer. I entertained myself with the thought of organising a last min very last guitar practice there - And as i walked in, kuang was exclaiming to me "Ah Heng! Lai~ Practice!" while simulating taking the stacked chairs to arrange for guitar practice. I didn't mention it this time, but how funny that we still manage to think the same things even after all these years of having graduated from the school and club. At one point, when the music room was empty of people except myself because everyone else were chatting in the clubhouse and along the corridors, i stood behind the table, looking from left to right as though all my guitar 1 to 3 players were there in the seats, and imagined myself conducting another lesson... Emo Heng, hahaa. Seeing both Moira and Kuang there at the end gives me even more sentiments than anyone can ever imagine - They were first people i encountered at the beginning of my life in NPS, and there they were, with me at the very last... How very nice...... :)

6. Last but not least, this is some fantastic violin playing!!

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

05 June 2009, Friday

I've got other things i wanna write about but it's abit late now and i haven't been getting enough sleep of late, so i'm just gonna fill you in on the thing that's occupying my mind most now -> I'm so charmed by this wonderful love song by Jason Mraz! Song's "I'm Yours". Go find the song and check it out!! Or you could listen to the live version here, just skip the first 38 seconds or so of the video though~ What a song to tell someone "I Love You!". Nice and fun!! :)



Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Well you done done me and you bet i felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now i'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find Love, love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah La peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be Loved loved loved loved loved

So i won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait i'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so i drew a face and laughed

I guess what i'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait i'm sure
There's no need to complicate (Well no no open up your mind and see like me)
Our time is short (Open up your plans and damn you're free)
This is our fate, I'm yours, i'm yours (Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love)

(Repeat and fade out)
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Simply Awesome!! Love it!!! ;)

wowww~ Guitar babe in the house!!

01 June 2009, Monday

I'm kind-of amazed by something Jonathan was showing me - Check this out~ Cool babe strum-singing on the guitar, and she can play the ukelele!! *chuckles* And she has a nice smile at the end of her videos... Oh man~!! Bring on the guitar babes!!





So Nice right!! ;)

Orh-chehs and blisters!! :p

31 May 2009, Sunday

Let's recap Heng's past few days activities!! Soccer on Fri night, work and 20km++ rollerblading on saturday, and a morning soccer session + a trip to the library today! (skipped the shopping trip) Damn tiring lor~~~ and i've sustained a considerable amount of injuries during the past few soccer sessions... Full of orh-chehs and blisters now!! *chuckles*

Look at all the swells, and i even have a blister inside another blister, if u look carefully!! Oh man~~ plus, i guarantee you've not seen all of it yet... another orh-cheh on my hip and left leg!! Wahahaaa :p I'm sure the gals out there would be rolling their eyes back and saying GUYS. Oh well yeah, it's a guy thing~ Good thing i'm single, if not surely kenna nag dao si... Hur hur hurrr~ ;)

Looking forward to the next soccer session and more weekends of fun like that for coming weeks!! ;)

little updates

30 May 2009, Saturday

Yesss Barcelona not Man U!!! Wahahahaa~!! :)
I simply love the free flowing soccer that Barca plays...... They even give the feel of attacking when they're defending!! The best example of this was during the 27th to 29th minute of the game... Dunno how to describe, go watch the replays for yourselves!! ;) Barca's passing was simply exquisite throughout the whole game... I hope Arsenal can play that kind of soccer AGAIN someday!! Well they use to do so, and they still try to do so, but they don't come close to the perfect execution of that play that Barca does yet... I'm now an Arsenal and Barcelona fan!!!! :)

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After work today (7am to 1pm), i went to East Coast Park with Zhaorong for skating and it was absolutely fantastic!! Although i was abit bai ka due to last night's 3hr soccer, wanted to visit the place and enjoy the buzz and feel of the elements!! As usual, we'd skate to the SAFRA chalet, but today was just abit extra special because of some little exploration that we did... Damn cool man!!

While skating, we noticed that it was Adidas' sundown marathon event day, because there were "distance boards" all along the cycling routes in East Coast. The first one we noticed was at "21km". On and on we skated along our usual route... until we reached the SAFRA resorts, and then we discovered that there was this extended connection to Changi. so we decided to skate on and explore... Wahaa!! Damn nice to skate once you've gotten through the initial slightly bumpy roads... There was this slightly dangerous swerve where people might fall into the sea if they overspeed and can't manage to brake though, *chuckles* really stirred up the laugh bugs in me lahh!! Maybe sometimes i imagine these horrible scenes too comically? hahahaa :p

So goes the story of Heng and Zhaorong's little adventure... From East coast Mac we skated till we passed by the planes and the airport and Changi Ferry Terminal and SAF Ferry Terminal and finally ended our little adventure at Changi Village!! All along was actually following the marathon route in some way.... I think we'd covered about 20++km today!! Fantastic lor~ the best part was really the feel of exploration and not really knowing what to expect ahead of us, so fun!! :) At the end of the skating trip, i rewarded myself with a nice plate of the famous Nasi Lemak, shiok lah!!! ^^

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二缺一
Previously a friend mentioned in passing that this term "二缺一" had nothing to do with what i thought it was, but just a nice song of Charlene Choi's!! Oh man~!! How could i not know!! Hahaha :p So..... i'd actually went and found the song and listened to it, really like it sia... Even better that it's Charlene's voice! :) I'd only managed to find the cantonese version though... Wanna to listen to both the Mandarin and Cantonese versions but couldn't find the Mandarin one. I know the cantonese version would be nicer anyway but i wanna compare the lyrics!! It's quite an emo song, so i wouldn't recommend it to heartbroken people, but i find the lyrics nice because they deliver the msg consistently throughout the song with rhyming entire paragraphs. Fantastic!! Here's part of the lyrics just for illustration purposes ;)

每晚回到家里 帶半殘废身軀
入睡床沒法睡 雜念來又去
往往仍记起你 过去共你一起
所经过多得可以编写几次传记
分享我的兴趣 分担我各樣顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱等於给我圣水
你去後令我发现 笑声有罪 踏步也失据

剩下自己 怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起 好东西獨独自回味
最極刑是 剩下自己 彷彿单腳企
任我再努力逃避 終须一跌沒餘地
假使我昨日 单身走过去
沒有经历和你 一起的壯舉
今天要我独居应不会 難受到想死去

Yea tmr morning another 2hrs of soccer and an afternoon trip to the library for me!! Hmm~ considering between joining Jimmy, his gf and his gf's friends for KTV or doing some shopping for new clothes!! GSS is here again!!!! :) Gotta go sleep liao, tataz!!

20 May 2009, Wednesday

I surprise even myself with how nonchalant i am with my results this semester. Tomorrow's my paper, and yet for the large part of my leave days, i've spent much of my time either reading storybooks, watching tv or doing leisure stuff online. I've actually only managed to reeeaally start studying only today and i'm actually not nervous about it... oh man! Gimme back my sense of emergency!!

Instead, i spend my time pondering over random things like:
Would you think sometimes some people are just too charming or charismatic for their own good and others? Not in terms of looks, but attractive personalities. Its like sometimes this attractive gal/guy has to act like they haven't noticed interest from people, they probably feel bad about choosing not to notice anyway. The term for this is.. ~Lan tao hua~ Hahaa :p And then, I've noticed how some people stay single without going into relationships for years once they've ever had a crush on someone relatively attractive to them. After that, the others just seem...... plain or missing something? Kakaa :p

Hmm~ Perhaps it's just human nature, just like anyone who's been to Redang wouldn't really find Tioman to be all that attractive at all lah!! Hehe~ Ah~~ Just a reflection as someone who's been on both ends as the bee and the honey (or the fly and the dabian if you like). Of course there's also people like yours monkeyly who has been in relationships before and prefer staying single for the freedom

Sometime last week or early this week, i recalled this nice story again -> "Where Rainbow Ends". Maybe some people are like Alex and Rosie? ... Sharing that fondness for each other, yet never willing to reveal their feelings just because they perceive that the other party doesn't have that kind of feeling in return, or being whirled into circumstances that prevent them from confessing each time they gather enough resolve to do so... Awww~ i wouldn't want to be in their shoes... I think it's really sad if 2 people so in love with each other have to wait till they're in their 50s or something before know how much feelings they have for each other and get together......... OOOOO i've suddenly realised something more important!!
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Sheeeeeeeeet i've wasted 40mins writing this gibberish......!!! (x_x''') Back to studies now!! Bye bye!! *chuckles*

Haircut!!

19 May 2009, Tuesday

Guess what? I'm actually feeling quite proud of myself right now. Just moments ago i'd returned from a trip to the hairdressers feeling distraught with looking idiotic like the Brazilian Ronaldo years back when he had his hair shaped like his teeth... Oh man!! Seriously! I kind-of had that buck teeth on the right side of my head after the haircut! Wah lauuu!!! So i took things into my own hands - and shaver, of course. I gave myself another haircut!! Hahaa :p Well, at least i don't look like Ronaldo anymore, without the "buck teeth" on the right side of my head. I actually look kind-of smart now u know! HaHa *whews sigh of relief*

(edit) i've just drawn some simple illustrations of that "stylish" hairstyle... kakaka

That slope i'm mentioning about has nothing whatsoever to do with a fringe, it's really cut short in the middle and shaped progressively longer along the right side. And that fantastic slope's part of the buck teeth on the right side. Say i'm old-fashioned if you like, but if being stylish involves looking stupid, i'd rather shave myself botak than to be soooo stylish as to have "buck-teeth" on the top side of my head....... Kakaka :p Haiya, i should've taken pictures of that stupid hairstyle, but was really feeling too distraught and panicky at that moment. And i've just discovered that my camera's run out of battery anyway, pics (of me NOW) up when batteries are recharged tonight! ;) (Added!)

No curry pok on the right side of my head!! Yea!! ;)

Meeting u again :)

18 May 2009, Monday

I'm super yearning for my exams to finish this Thursday, cos i've just got my hands on the whole series of "The Belgariad" today!! Wahaa!!! Wahhhhhh~~~~~ Wanna start reading them sia....... Hope i can resist long enough to complete my revisions! *chuckles*

Guess what? For all the alone time that i've claimed to have enjoyed from weeks ago, i actually decided to switch modes. Met up with some of my closest friends individually for meals and chit chat recently. Didn't really want to talk about this until meeting with specifically 3 of them among all the people close to me. Can you believe it? They're the people who've occupied my thoughts most since late 2004, and yet it's been approximately 2 months+, 3 months+ and 10 months++ respectively since i'd last met the 3 of them. Well I've finally managed to fulfill that wish today! ;) I can finally move on without looking back at things that happened or didn't happen!! Hahaa ^^

Next people on my list -> definitely Dejun and Zhaorong, my good bro and sis... are the 2 of you ready for me? Heh heh :) Sometime this weekend or next week ok? ;)

As for the rest...... You can make do with these pics of me for now right......? Hahahaa :p

Hahahaa~ ok cut the crap. I'm actually planning to go for a haircut tmr or the day after so just taking some pics of myself now for the sake of doing it. And also just to keep from getting too wordy! :p

By the way! BBQ in June, anybody? :)

Little updates~!!

18 May 2009, Monday

Just realised today how little attention i'd been paying to my online webbys and exploits including blogspot, hahaa!! And this realization comes as a result of Dejun flooding my email with Facebook photo tags, Thanks har~~~ Hahaha. Having real fun with muah offline stuff, so wasn't really concerned about friendster or facebook etc becoming mouldy ~ Kakaka :p

Just took my Marketing paper on Friday, i think it would take a big big miracle for me to pass! Yeah i know many of my friends are not going to believe this, but i actually DO think i'm going to fail this time! Hahahaa... Not really into studying this sem yeah... Can't really say i'm feeling lazy, just too distracted la!

Was studying with Xiaohei, Joey, and one of Joey's other friend at Woodlands library from 12 to 9pm on Thursday. Yours monkeyly spent half the time going on 2 separate shopping trips, reading a comic book (bought from the 2nd shopping trip) and talking crap about stuff like worms, spraying insecticide up somewhere, goldfish and fisherman's friend. Quite a joke, Hahaha, hmm~ should i elaborate? Maybe next time la

Next - remember someone mentioning that my blog's gotten too wordy. Haiya~ muah poor neglected camera... Hehe ;) Ok, here's the first picture of many to come (hopefully!) then!!

These are muah proud purchases over the past few weeks.

School shoes, a soccer ball, and The Mallorean series by David Eddings

I guess the purchases of the Soccer ball and the books are pretty much self-explanatory, but school shoes? Kakaka :p Well, it's nothing, i'm not planning on infiltrating some secondary school or something with my deceptively youthful looks, it's just that i play my soccer games better wearing them because i'm so used to playing in those shoes. I actually started shooting and dribbling properly after getting those shoes... i've finally started scoring goalsssss again! Amazing, huh!! *Chuckles*

Typical weekend

26 April 2009, Sunday

Nothing special to mention... but I played soccer again on Friday night from 10pm to 2am!! :) :) :) Super fun!!! Unfortunately i injured my left ankle and right hip in between the games ... Hahaa :p Then again, didn't think the injuries were that bad at first, cos i was able to continue playing without any pain throughout, although i couldn't shoot with my left foot la. BUT discovered to my horror that my left foot was swollen on Saturday morning!! Haiya originally wanted to go East Coast today de lor. Should have been a really nice day cos the weather today was fantastic ^~^ Yay Arsenal win and Aston Villa draw!! Pity West Ham miss their penalty against Chelsea... Hahaa :p

Back to superfit and play soccer days...? Heh heh~

21 April 2009, Tuesday

Starting from my first running practice last Wednesday, i'm finally getting my hopes up about becoming ... ... superfit again!! :) Though it was nothing special and not particularly strenuous, it was the difficult first step and very significant push to get my exercise momentum going. Even more lucky, i've finally found people to play soccer together regularly with!! Wahaa!!! ^^

Last friday was super satisfying, though i felt quite bad about asking Alvin (mua colleague friend) to find another ka for his mahjong session because i wanna pang-seh the session to play soccer... Thanks to Jerry la huh~ hehe. Met the other guys for the soccer gamessss at FICO (cage soccer) at 10pm. I didn't recognise many of them, cos there were friends' friends and Air force alumnis included amongst us. We played till 1am! Super shiok lor, though i was abit bah-ka at first... couldn't control the ball when dribbling it at all. Too long nvr play le!! The muscle aches from wednesday's run had something to do with it as well, i guess~ To think i was almost unbeatable in my sec school and ITE days, ~sigh~ Thanks to the other side of my game though, (distribution play, anticipation play) i was able to exert a considerable amount of influence after the 3rd game :) super fun, super Fun, Super Fun!!! Whole of Saturday and Sunday was itching to play in every cell lor, hehe :p

Saturday - planned to start my day at 7.30am, but it was mission impossible. What to do~ Only reached home at close 2am and slept at close to 3am the night before, heh heh~ woke up at close to 11am instead. Went to CPF building in Jurong East to get my Singpass for e Tax-filing... I procrastinated till the very last day again!! Hahaha :p And then since the library was so near, i'd also planned to return the books i'd finished and borrow some more. On top of that, i visited Popular bookstore and found Breaking Dawn!! WOW!!!! 7 extra stories to finish before 10 May..... Siao liao!!!! (Cos wanna finish Breaking Dawn first.. hehe) Once reached home, cheong assignment, read Breaking Dawn, cheong assignment, read Breaking Dawn, cheong assignment... watch soccer!!! :)

So yeah~ was super happy on Saturday until... ... ...
Arsenal lost to Chelsea in their FA Cup semi-finals!! Damn lor... the pitch was terrible, about the same as Villarreal's pitch in Arsenal's away game there. Although Arsene Wenger (Arsenal's manager) claims it (the pitch) had nothing to do with Arsenal's loss to Chelsea, i have every reason to disagree. I DISAGREE!!!! Lemme ask those who wanna contradict me. What's Arsenal's strength and way of playing? Lightning quick and precise passing, one touch football. What's Chelsea's main strength? They make use of Power players like Didier Drogba, Michael Essien, John Terry, Michael Ballack to exert their pressure on players. On that stupid pitch, Arsenal were stripped of their advantage, while Chelsea could simply pump their long balls in, which was what they did for the winning goal anyway. UNFAIR!!! Wembley pitch is truly a disgrace, especially considering its cost and prestige.

Sunday... Resigned myself to sulking, cheonging assignment, reading and sleeping the whole day long. Breaking Dawn is definitely the best of the four in the Twilight Saga!! Nice lor, haha. Originally would've been interested to watch Man U vs Everton at night but was still feeling miserable from Arsenal's loss so wasn't in the mood to watch another inconsequential-to-Arsenal-fans-anymore soccer match. Hmm. Man U lost on penalties. Ha ha~ At least the Man U fans couldn't suan me, hehe :p

Today! Went for another running practice. And then i was told that another soccer session possibly coming up this Friday!! Yayyyy!!!!! ^^ Super tired now, gonna sleep. Tataz!!

The Myself Times... Hahaa :p

13 April 2009, Monday

Woohooo~ ! Didn't realise it's been a month since i'd last written. My impressions tell me that it couldn't have been less than 15 times that i'd wanted to write on stuffs coming across my mind; that brushed against my emotions & thoughts over this period of time... Though of course, being me, nuahness tends to triumph over desires, haha! Hmm~ can't really remember what i'd wanted to write at those times though, so i'll just focus on those i've deeper impressions of :)

EPL league results
Not that i've anything against Man U, which i appreciate for the flowing attacking football that they normally exhibit... but the arrogance that Man U's fans have accumulated in their over-egoistic minds over their repeated successes really irritates me to the core of my very being. So i was immensely satisfied when Man U lost to Liverpool and Fulham, and with devastating results as well. Woohooo~!! Time for Man U fans to learn some humility. But what pleases me most are the recent results that Arsenal have managed to achieve! Seeing them getting back their attacking instincts and capacity makes me more happy than any other goings on in the leagues!! I can't believe Arsenal's bad luck though... Now that they've welcomed their key strikers and midfielders back from injuries, they've lost their key defenders!! Wah lau wey...... Siao liao lah............................

Eclipse
The 3rd book in The Twilight Saga Series. Managed to buy it from the JP Popular outlet some time back, lucky! Hmm... It's not really what this book is about, but parts of the story from New Moon to Eclipse got me thinking back about some of my own past experiences. So i was Edward, and then i was Jacob...? In many ways but not all though. That troubled me for a while, i suppose... And then the urge to read and relive some past memories that i'd written on was overwhelming, and i succumbed. This time it didn't poison my heart like it used to, but still remembered how excruciating and torturing the experience was. Nothing of much effect on me now though! Just reflecting, hur hurr ;)

Personal Time
For the past 4 weeks or so, i decided to spend some alone time away from almost everything and everyone else - i was rarely online or outside other than when work, classes or assignments required me to; I shied away from contact with most people during my free times, and kept myself to myself for myself. Ahhh~ The freedom was so pleasurable, and i enjoyed it. Even so, inevitably from the 3rd week or so, i started missing my friends and all the group outings, and mahjong sessions. It became so serious that i came to realise how badly i missed the times where we need not even spend one/zillionths of a second to think of where we could find good company - ahh~ the good ol' NPS times... ~sigh~ Heyy peeps, if you're reading this, i super miss u all lei >_<

East Coast
Back to my "antisocial" times (Wahahaaa~), remember spending a day at East Coast for the afternoon sun and the evening breeze. MYSELF time, didn't even bring my phone with me... Woohoooo~!!! Super shiok lor, and good time to be a little emo, of course... (emo not equals sad, ok, hehe^^) Wahh~ how to describe the freedom of moving around in my blades with hardly any restrictions and being unbounded from everything except myself... or feeling the sun and wind brush gently against my skin with my eyes closed and ears open to the serenade of the sea that cleansed my mind while i rested sitting or lying down... could feel my every cell relaxed and vibrating with the happiness of being so free from the world, as if i were a cloud, or the wind, or simply an element and not a being. Really appreciated the experience... Pity i can't risk doing it all the time cos the nature of my work requires me to stay contactable, hahaha. Tsk.

Library
Another day was spent in J.E library browsing for books of my interest. It was some days after i'd finished reading Eclipse and found myself unable to contain my reading needs... So yea it was my off day which i originally desired to nuah in bed and relax all day comfortably wormed in the hole that was my home, but tadah!!! somehow found enough motivation to push myself out to get the books. What's the point of staying in bed without anything to read!! Eeee!! Haha :p Yups and so after a whole day of browsing and slight frustration at being able to locate all but the first book of a series i took interest in (rolls eyes back and feeling exasperated, i think it was The Tamuli.. or was it another series? hmm~ Can't really remember) i gave up on that and finally ended up leaving the library with "The shadows of the wind" by Carlos Ruiz Zafon (i almost typed Julian Caraz! *Chuckles* ahhh~ u'll understand what i'm saying once u've read the book) and "The Hidden City" by Michelle West neatly tucked in my bag. Another 4 weeks of good reading in between work, class and assignments to enjoy! Heh heh~ ;)

Breaking the alone time
Spent a day with a favourite friend. I was tired from lack of sleep, because for the whole week before that, i had to start work at 5.30am everyday except thursday. Friday and Saturday were worse - ended at 7pm. So it was great in a way. Despite being tired and cooped up for so long, it was nice to find myself able to chat with someone non-stop. Hmm, thinking back, the little downside for me was, i think, allowing my guard down and being a little careless with touch and words. i shall ensure that i exercise better restraint like my normal self when i meet with friends again, hehe :p But this day, it was amazing. Although the day did not proceed as we originally planned, where even plan B was discarded due to the terrible but filling lunch that we started off with, while at the same time discovering some differences between us, the rest of the day was as though i was trying to make up to myself for all the silence i'd embedded myself in for the past weeks. It was just one of the rare days that i was able to chatter non-stop with countless reminisces of the dramas of my life where i was the lead actor... it helps that the friend was a good listener too, Fantastic! Hahaa :p Quite funny lor, when i think back, and immensely enjoyable :) Especially to think that i managed all that in my tiredness!

Finally back to my normal work routine! Today's my off day and i'm supposed to start on my assignments... but i shall nap first, hehe :p Tataz!

Colorgenics

13 Mar 2009, Friday

Got to know about this "Colorgenics test" from Kelvin's blog and decided to try it...... Honestly, just like him, i wonder how a simple test with colours can be so quite accurate huh~ It's really amazing! hahaa :p

Name: Yow Heng
Date: 3/12/2009
Colorgenics Number: 14356027

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

So so very true lei~ nothing to dispute about this... Hahaa ;)

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

Yesss!!! People who know me would know :)

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

Hmmm~ depends if there's any person who meets expectations? Wahahaa :p

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.

Ya lahhh~ i need freedom!!! But for now it's quite ok~ i can breathe ^^

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Yes yes~!! No quarrels, no conflicts, peace~ leave me alone, hehe :p

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So interesting~ For those who wanna try, you can take this test at the following webby ;)
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp

WOWWW was going to write a post and then suddenly realised it's friday the 13th.... Hope nothing goes wrong today!! Hahaa :p

Random thoughts - Happy again~

08 Mar 2009, Sunday

Back again! Past few weeks were a mixture of both entertaining and unhappy stuff.

Unhappy stuff cos a few things not going on too well for quite a number of my good friends like Jimmy (earlier on at work), Xiaohei (but with 3 assignments down & at least another one happy thing, she's ok), Zhaorong (hopefully he's getting better and more occupied), Joey (hmm most worrying of the 4), and childhood friend Koon (who's just lost his dad to heaven). And then there's the "combo meal" that my this sem's grpmates treated me. Bloody hell. Shall not talk of these unhappy stuff though~ Hahaa :)

Entertaining stuff including the likes of the story of a suitor (not me huh hahaha) who unsuccessfully jio-ed one of my gal-friends to go steady with him on v-day's eve, very interesting contents!! *chuckles* Well, he's done some other things well to earn himself some credits though... so congrats to him!! Hmm~ other entertaining stuff i guess are the recent plight of Kuang being suan-ed (by me) about being fat and (by sheena & Poh) losing his humour and stuff during the past 2 times that we met... Kelian de Ah Kuang. Hi Ah Kuang!! *waves* (Hur hurr hurrr~) :p One of that was during Zhaorong's Bday celebration which was alot of fun preparing. Shall not go into the details though!! We also had fun with the cake after the birthday song which i sang loudly and with much Gusto *Grins*. My my~ Birthday cakes are really delightful when they're litted up with candlelight. Was so so happy seeing the cake even though it was not for me. I can have no end of fascinations about these things de lor ^^

Happily chatting about holes
(After the birthday song, blowing out candlefire, photos and removing candles)

Heng: Zhaorong prepare to cut the cake~
Zhaorong: Eh wait i want to take pictures of the cake
Xiaohei: Aiyo! The cake alot of holes liao lei~
Heng: Ya lo, ay but i think got holes maybe like looks better lei
(Zhaorong happily snapping away with kuang and Heng helping him while xiaohei takes pictures of the 3 guys fiddling around with the cake)
Heng: (to xiaohei) Aiya just now should remember which coloured candle occupy which hole!! Then i can post the pic on the blog and describe one by one
Xiaohei: Hahaha ni wu liao lor
(Zhaorong places the "Happy Birthday" decoration flat on the cake for more photos)
Heng: (Eyeing the decoration) Ay!! We should try pressing that Happy Birthday into the cake! See whether the cake can have another nice hole or not
Xiaohei: (giggles) huh can meh will become very ugly or not
Heng: Aiya try know liao lor~ (Takes decoration and presses into the cake)
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... (cake "sponges" down along with the downward pressure)
Heng: =_=''' Aiyo! the cake too spongy liao (taking away the decoration & looks at the cake) really become very ugly lei hahaha. (looks again) Aiya the words never take shape on the cake. Ay zhaorong cut the cake cut the cake~

Haha!! Zhaorong and Ah Kuang, wanna supplement with ur comments from that day? Can't remember the rest too clearly wor~ Hur hurr hurr~

Hmm~ recently with my outings i've become increasingly aware that i seem to be the only one that's not attending as a couple, and somehow that's producing some kind of pressure (still quite ignorable though, hahaa). I guess age has something to do with it bah!! Well i think i'm staying single anyway~ here's something about myself that i've been meaning to share for sometime anyway, that's what i enjoy. I call it "revelling happily in the aloneness". I don't really understand but there's something inside of me that totally revels in the freedom and being by myself. Examples of stuff i do alone are my hobbies which are ALOT. Used to be stuff like guitar playing of course~ In recent times would be Rollerblading, Reading, suntanning, video gaming (with old nintendo games), watching tv and clips online, etc etc etc!! I've no time for all of them!! *whines* I love being by myself sometimes... i guess NPS fellas would remember a time when i totally disappeared from everybody's contact. Nobody could contact me for weeks bcos i turned off my phone and cut off all contact to me. And then i'd do memorable stuff like learn Sunburst, or do the famous 25 burger thingy for fun~ Hahaa!! Crazy fella~

Convince me to go into a relationship only if u find someone who clicks with me! and i guess that means she enjoys stuff like music, mahjonging, reading, sports, doesn't need luxuries (my standard is 3 room flat only) and stature. Where to find!! Only i'm like that, bcos i live only for self-actualization!! Wahahaa :p Having said that, i'm happy to be myself!

Heng's mood index: mH (= moderato Happilito!!) *chuckles*

Little updates

08 Feb 2009, Sunday

Hmmm~ i guess i should update starting from last Thursday? Ho ho :)

Last Thursday (29th Jan), Kuang smsed me to get a confirmation from me that our originally planned steamboat dinner was cancelled, then jio-ed me for mahjong. Ha ha ha~ he couldn't get the necessary ka, so i asked him whether wanna jio Zhaorong and XiaoheiJac out for dinner and movie. In between i asked Kuang to ask Liting, Dejun and co. whether they wanted to meet us, cos XiaoheiJac told me she had already agreed to meet a friend and couldn't join us. In the end XiaoheiJac's friend zhun zhun fall sick so instead it was still the 4 of us, Kuang, Zhaorong, XiaoheiJac, and yours monkeyly, although Zhaorong only met us after the movie at 9+ due to his work. We watched "Love matters", which was quite a funny show, i enjoyed it. XiaoheiJac was really quite pretty on that day with her newly dyed hair, and one piece dress. She told us that it was her company's new policy that they had to dress formal but not in uniform on Thurs and Fri, and added cheekily that her company didn't have enough $$ in their coffers to replace their uniforms and so wanted them to wear it less often, ha ha ha. Then we chit chatted at MOS burger where as usual, our conversations were so funny that i commented "wah lau laugh until stomach very pain... if tmr i got IPPT, i think i can do 60 situps lor, very well trained today liao". I also related to them my recent thoughts and opinions about relationships when looking at what's happening to my friends around me, which had me kind-of disillusioned and convinced that i'm right to stay single for now. Abit tired of bgr even just looking at it and not getting involved...

On friday (30th Jan), i attended my very first marketing lesson for this semester. The lecturer was WOW, excellent!! Very san ba, very talkative, speaks very fast, but very passionate and engaging. It was really fun to attend her lecture, which was punctuated with laughter, and cheeky answers/remarks in response to her questions, of which yours monkeyly most willingly and actively participated in contributing, Hur hur hurr... :p Her enthusiasm really really rubs off on all of us! Hmmmmmm..... For those of my friends who know Cherie, yupz, that's almost exactly how my lecturer is like in terms of Behaviour, talking style, and san-ba-ness!! And her name is Sheryl, so similar!!! Hahaha :p Really really enjoyed the lessons! After reaching home from the lesson, i then jio-ed a few friends to see if anybody wanted to meet up to go Qimei's home together on the next day for our gathering, before turning in for the night.

Saturday (31 Jan, Chu6), woke up at about 11+, then washed up and started for Qimei's home at the other end of the country. While on the train, i decided to confirm with XiaoheiJac that i wouldn't be going to EngWah's home later on in the day after all. Not really enough time for me to be at Tampines, Sengkang, and Admiralty all in 1 day!!! And with NPS fellas, i wouldn't want to just drop by say hi and then disappear... Really felt like spending more time with them la. Well anyway, reached Tampines and decided to have my lunch at Mac while waiting to see if Sheena, Poh and co. were coming to meet me to go Qimei's home together. I cabbed there alone in the end and reached at about... 2.40pm i think? They were already playing mahjong when i reached, so didn't get to play much (But Big Thanks to GuanTyng who let me play for him for about 2 winds!!) Was supposed to leave at about 5pm+ for my colleagues' farewell dinner, which i discovered to my horror was at Admiralty area instead of Aljunied!!! WOWWW!!!! Huge huge difference between the locations lor, really really idiotic of me not to realise after more than 1 whole week of talking about the dinner with my colleagues! Hahahaha :p

(On a certain weekday)

Soh: Ay the dinner on Saturday is around Admiralty area huh
Heng: (Thinking Aljunied) Orh ok ok. Wah~ Heng is not Ang Mo Kio or what ah, if not i travel till siao on that day sia. I'm going Tampines/Changi area and maybe Sengkang before the dinner lor~ Admiralty still not too bad la
Soh: (??? but doesn't comment on Heng's reply cos not sure) u jiak ba liao!! Travel so much on that day. Maybe from Sengkang can take Ah Wu's car lor
Heng: (Still thinking Aljunied) Aiya~~~ No need la Admiralty ok mah, all on about the same side of Singapore
Soh: (???? again)
(Heng already left the scene and conversation liao)


Imagine if i'd decided to go to Eng Wah's home at Sengkang too!!! Would've travelled thru whole of Singapore in one day lor... =_=''' Yupz, anyway back to what i was saying, in the end stayed till about 6pm cos was hoping to see the rest who hadn't arrived. Alas, It was not to be... though i still held on to the hope that there would be a 2nd round at some ktv or something so i could join them again after the dinner. When i'd reached Sakura, (near RP), was already close to 8pm. Ate and chatted abit with everyone happily even though the food wasn't really to my liking. Some of us then continued for the 2nd round where we went to Robertson Walk (ard Mohd Sultan there) to drink and watch soccer. There was only Soh, Jianming, Alvin and his gf Yunjie, but we still had fun chitchatting away, drinking, and watching soccer. Whoa watched Arsenal vs West Ham, Boltan vs Tottenham and Aston Villa vs Hull (i think) all at the same time! When the matches were coming to an end, i checked with Qimei whether NPS fellas would be having 2nd round somewhere... Unfortunately the ans was no, so for the first time in many years, i didn't get to see as many NPS fellas over CNY as i'd hoped...... Anyway, so i stayed and watched the Man U match too. Reached home about 4am+


01 Feb (Sunday) Woke up at about 12+. Mahjong at Alvin's home was supposed to start at 2pm, so i washed up and gobbled up my food while surfing the net. That's when i read the post which made me very sad. While on my way to Alvin's home, i kept pondering and wondering what went wrong, why things unrelated to the incident were mentioned, and all the time worrying with a heavy heart about how and whether our friendship would weather thru this storm... I also discovered that i'd forgotten to bring oranges (ok, this is anti-climax, i know), so when i reached Chinatown i had to ask a very kind uncle who gave me directions on where i could buy some. Took me 10mins to reach the store and whole of 20mins to select nice looking oranges. Ironically, on this day my luck on the mahjong table turned for the better and i won $70. We were playing 3/6, so that's ok. When i reached home at about 10pm+, i continued pondering about the matter with sadness while i washed up and started writing my previous post. All the time i kept thinking about the quote from Cao Zhi (from Romance of the 3 Kingdoms), "相煎何太急". Was really very sad about it. Dropped an sms to dear friend, saying i wrote on my blog again, and also offered to meet up to clear our misunderstandings, if any.

Monday, (02 Feb), pity, total of 3 or 4 requests to meet were met with a final "not free for this whole mth". Only then did i realise how shallow our friendship was, that it was not even worth 1 or 2 hrs of her time to restore to normal. While eventually it might still be there, it'll nvr be the same again. Besides sadness, nothing more to describe how i felt. Luckily managed to clear up another misunderstanding which i didn't even realise was in the air with another person, that lifted my spirits for a while. Wanted to skip evening class because of the little sleep i had on Saturday night and also the night before, but forced myself to attend as i had yet to form my assignment grp. Slept like a stone for the night...

The other weekdays passed by uneventfully, though sadness and the feeling of loss continued to badger me throughout. Remembered things like "Sometimes, people find it more difficult to forgive others for being right than being wrong" from the Harry Potter series. How very true. Reflecting back on that very sentence which i commented on facebook very early on - "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, not my problem, Heng ah!!", i really smacked my forehead and wondered why i was so foolish as to poke my nose in, and turn it into my problem. Undoubtedly the gesture was fine, but Nosy and Silly. Anyway, i've decided this is not worth my time and thoughts, i guess i'll just put my attention on other things and people from now on. Anyway, dear friend seems to be getting along well with her life now so that's really great.


Friday (06 Feb), i received an invitation from Edward to play mahjong!! Goodness me, it's been quite a while since i last met him. Was really quite happy about it. We decided we'd play 2 rounds, but not through the night as he had to teach in the morning and i had classes on fri night itself and also saturday morning. We played from about 11pm till close to 4am and It was fun, i'd also won another $70. I then stayed in Ed's home for the night where we lay in bed and chatted till 5am+ before falling asleep. Almost like the poly days when Kuang stayed in my home for awhile during holidays! It felt really great, especially after the misery of the past few days.

Saturday (07 Feb), 7.30am, left Ed's home along with him and his family, and met XiaoheiJac for breakfast and to go for our lessons together, since her home was just about next to Ed's. It was nice having company travelling to school, cos we can chitchat, haha :) Lesson was boring and i was tired from having just 1 and half hrs sleep the night before, but then i received another invitation from Kuang for mahjong. Said i'm ok with it as long as he manages to find ka and place to play, cos my bro was working night shift that day so couldn't play at my home. At first i thought i could get on with my original plans to go home and sleep like a log after lunch with XiaoheiJac, Joey, and Doreen, cos i doubted we could get enough ka. But the outcome was great. Not only did i enjoy a nice lunch where we talked abit of rubbish here and there with some laughs here and there, including textbooks and stuff, but kuang actually managed to find ka for mahjong which was at....... Ed's home again!! So i told XiaoheiJac we can travel back together again ha ha ha and then we were on our way. At causeway point, met kuang for his lunch and accompanied XiaoheiJac to Singtel shop to change her new but defective phone, then went to Ed's home. Ed said "Welcome home!" and i, "我回來了!" So fun hahaha. So i bathed while we waited for kuang's ex-colleague to arrive. Macham my own home sia. We managed to finish one round and kuang's colleague had to leave for her dinner, so the 3 of us continued playing 3person mahjong. WAH SEH really very different, but quite fun to play once in a while, i guess. We had Char kway Teow dinner which Ed's mum bought for us and ended our last round at 9pm+, i had won another $45 from the normal mahjong and $40 from our 3person mahjong. Cabbed to Jurong with Ed cos he was meeting Jolene. Haiya, earlier on i wanted to pay for our Char Kway Teow dinner but Ed insisted it was ok, so i offered to pay the cab fare in full but i got off first and all my notes were $50 ones except for a $10 note, so although it was majority of the fare, Ed still had to top up a few dollars from his coffers. Making myself a mental note to give Ed a treat next time we meet ;)

Sunday (08 Feb), slept like a log from 11pm last night till close to 12noon today. Was lazy to get up so i played Sudoku with my Nokia phone for awhile, before getting up to wash up, have lunch and go shopping. Kuang, Qimei, and Wanling are visiting me today!! I jio-ed them for a small reunion dinner at my home today la, originally should have already done so on Chu4, but it was postponed to Chu11 and then again to today due to circumstances. Pity Jimmy couldn't come today though. I enjoy seeing them at my home again because Kuang and Wanling are in mum's good books, hehehe :) If and when i have my own home one day, i'm definitely gonna jio my friends to visit me all the time, hahaha, i pity my future wife, if ever i get married. Hmm, i think that's all for now, Jialat la Arsenal drew their game again today... Tsk :(