"Proof" of my OCPDness?

11 Oct 2009, Sunday

This was the mail sent to my groupmates as the vent of my frustrations at that time. I actually wrote this after receiving a msg from the Always-D-grade-but-not-humble-enough-to-accept-others'-input groupmate. I think it's actually quite entertaining, if you're not on the receiving end of it, hahaa

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Hi fellas, As texted to CM, i will not be much involved in the remaining Q3d after that day's discussion on 3a, b and parts of c.

However, I would like to provide these little pieces of advice in case you don't already know them. Pls take it from a constructive point of view, not personally like the other time round.

1. Copy pasted work will not win you many marks, plagiarism rate will flag out high and, i won't say all, but certainly some or many lecturers do take these stuff rather badly. It shows lack of effort that gives the perception of little consideration before putting in the contents.

2. I have tried each time to put on a mask of anonymity for the company name, for your own sake. Each time, it seems to be rejected and i do not understand why, despite having provided proof in one of my previous mails from lecturers that it is not fucking necessary to put in a company name.

3. Word count are just guidelines? Maybe for some lecturers, but not all. For example, the lecturer in the class T613 is the type who has specifically mentioned she will deduct marks for overshooting word count. Given that our very own lecturer is relatively new and he follows the slides so closely during his lectures, do you think he will treat it as "just a guideline"? Think again.

4. Pls don't take everything or indeed anything as "already understood by lecturers". There IS a reason why we're fucking students. We are supposed to show that we understand these stuff in our work. Otherwise, might as well hand in a blank piece of work? Don't you think lecturers already know just about everything in the TMA?

5. It's the subtle differences that separates one grade from the next. Perhaps every single individual thing i mentioned will seem trifle or matters little to one or more of you, but they do add up, next thing you know, you've shifted from one grade to the next, then to the next, and to the next again. Sounds familiar?

Thus far, you guys might think i've been "difficult to work with". If that is the case, i apologise for offending in any way. However, i wish to highlight that i only wanted the best for the 3 of us. Sometimes when you guys have certain views that contradicts my own, i might argue my points, but ultimately when you guys manage to convince me, i do alter the answers to the point of our discussion. Each time i put in an input, it is because i think it is an improvement to what was already done. And i emphasize the point that in the case of 3a and 3b, i did not OVERHAUL the fucking answers. I merely made small little tweaks here and there which i deemed necessary. It would all have been very well if you guys were able to provide satisfying relevant reasons for not using them, but that day, i heard nothing except stuff like "looks the same, so use mine lor", "aiyah, wordcount is just a guideline", "you dun understand, doesn't mean lecturer don't understand". There you go, nothing constructive whatsoever.

Lastly, i agree with Eric that grades are not everything, not everyone is good at what they do. I have never needed my groupmates to be damn good, and i always respect each individual's work, but i hate it when ppl are not humble enough to accept it if and when ppl tell them their work is not good enough in some ways, not to mention rejecting inputs from others without good reason. I also hate being taken for a ride, and i hate knowing that the efforts i put in for us were rejected without good reason but merely with nothing except scorn and with much spite. Pls know that everything i put in, i am merely striving to improve whatever good work we already have, for us. Unlike, perhaps some ppl are thinking, it has nvr been for the pleasure of trying to feel superior to others or to show that i'm good or what. FYI, i do not think i'm good enough, but i DO take pride in what i do, and i do them in the name of good honour and responsibility towards everyone of us. I believe i have explained myself satisfactorily.

Lastly, i wish to reiterate that i have decided to be obedient and bear no intentions whatsoever of standing in the way of Chee Ming who has always expressedly shown an extraordinary inerest in completing Q3 by himself. I only ask that you guys look into the advice i have given and give them a little consideration.

Good day to you all.

Your fucking obedient soldier
Yow Heng
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Maybe somebody can help me by commenting whether i was displaying OCPD symtoms in this email? But on the other hand, how can anyone ever be efficient without having some degree of OCPD symptoms? Hahaa =p And how come i didn't display any of these when i was doing work with ppl like Joey, Jan, Xiaohei, etc? If i'm suffering from OCPD, it should apply to all and not only to certain ppl right???