The Myself Times... Hahaa :p

13 April 2009, Monday

Woohooo~ ! Didn't realise it's been a month since i'd last written. My impressions tell me that it couldn't have been less than 15 times that i'd wanted to write on stuffs coming across my mind; that brushed against my emotions & thoughts over this period of time... Though of course, being me, nuahness tends to triumph over desires, haha! Hmm~ can't really remember what i'd wanted to write at those times though, so i'll just focus on those i've deeper impressions of :)

EPL league results
Not that i've anything against Man U, which i appreciate for the flowing attacking football that they normally exhibit... but the arrogance that Man U's fans have accumulated in their over-egoistic minds over their repeated successes really irritates me to the core of my very being. So i was immensely satisfied when Man U lost to Liverpool and Fulham, and with devastating results as well. Woohooo~!! Time for Man U fans to learn some humility. But what pleases me most are the recent results that Arsenal have managed to achieve! Seeing them getting back their attacking instincts and capacity makes me more happy than any other goings on in the leagues!! I can't believe Arsenal's bad luck though... Now that they've welcomed their key strikers and midfielders back from injuries, they've lost their key defenders!! Wah lau wey...... Siao liao lah............................

Eclipse
The 3rd book in The Twilight Saga Series. Managed to buy it from the JP Popular outlet some time back, lucky! Hmm... It's not really what this book is about, but parts of the story from New Moon to Eclipse got me thinking back about some of my own past experiences. So i was Edward, and then i was Jacob...? In many ways but not all though. That troubled me for a while, i suppose... And then the urge to read and relive some past memories that i'd written on was overwhelming, and i succumbed. This time it didn't poison my heart like it used to, but still remembered how excruciating and torturing the experience was. Nothing of much effect on me now though! Just reflecting, hur hurr ;)

Personal Time
For the past 4 weeks or so, i decided to spend some alone time away from almost everything and everyone else - i was rarely online or outside other than when work, classes or assignments required me to; I shied away from contact with most people during my free times, and kept myself to myself for myself. Ahhh~ The freedom was so pleasurable, and i enjoyed it. Even so, inevitably from the 3rd week or so, i started missing my friends and all the group outings, and mahjong sessions. It became so serious that i came to realise how badly i missed the times where we need not even spend one/zillionths of a second to think of where we could find good company - ahh~ the good ol' NPS times... ~sigh~ Heyy peeps, if you're reading this, i super miss u all lei >_<

East Coast
Back to my "antisocial" times (Wahahaaa~), remember spending a day at East Coast for the afternoon sun and the evening breeze. MYSELF time, didn't even bring my phone with me... Woohoooo~!!! Super shiok lor, and good time to be a little emo, of course... (emo not equals sad, ok, hehe^^) Wahh~ how to describe the freedom of moving around in my blades with hardly any restrictions and being unbounded from everything except myself... or feeling the sun and wind brush gently against my skin with my eyes closed and ears open to the serenade of the sea that cleansed my mind while i rested sitting or lying down... could feel my every cell relaxed and vibrating with the happiness of being so free from the world, as if i were a cloud, or the wind, or simply an element and not a being. Really appreciated the experience... Pity i can't risk doing it all the time cos the nature of my work requires me to stay contactable, hahaha. Tsk.

Library
Another day was spent in J.E library browsing for books of my interest. It was some days after i'd finished reading Eclipse and found myself unable to contain my reading needs... So yea it was my off day which i originally desired to nuah in bed and relax all day comfortably wormed in the hole that was my home, but tadah!!! somehow found enough motivation to push myself out to get the books. What's the point of staying in bed without anything to read!! Eeee!! Haha :p Yups and so after a whole day of browsing and slight frustration at being able to locate all but the first book of a series i took interest in (rolls eyes back and feeling exasperated, i think it was The Tamuli.. or was it another series? hmm~ Can't really remember) i gave up on that and finally ended up leaving the library with "The shadows of the wind" by Carlos Ruiz Zafon (i almost typed Julian Caraz! *Chuckles* ahhh~ u'll understand what i'm saying once u've read the book) and "The Hidden City" by Michelle West neatly tucked in my bag. Another 4 weeks of good reading in between work, class and assignments to enjoy! Heh heh~ ;)

Breaking the alone time
Spent a day with a favourite friend. I was tired from lack of sleep, because for the whole week before that, i had to start work at 5.30am everyday except thursday. Friday and Saturday were worse - ended at 7pm. So it was great in a way. Despite being tired and cooped up for so long, it was nice to find myself able to chat with someone non-stop. Hmm, thinking back, the little downside for me was, i think, allowing my guard down and being a little careless with touch and words. i shall ensure that i exercise better restraint like my normal self when i meet with friends again, hehe :p But this day, it was amazing. Although the day did not proceed as we originally planned, where even plan B was discarded due to the terrible but filling lunch that we started off with, while at the same time discovering some differences between us, the rest of the day was as though i was trying to make up to myself for all the silence i'd embedded myself in for the past weeks. It was just one of the rare days that i was able to chatter non-stop with countless reminisces of the dramas of my life where i was the lead actor... it helps that the friend was a good listener too, Fantastic! Hahaa :p Quite funny lor, when i think back, and immensely enjoyable :) Especially to think that i managed all that in my tiredness!

Finally back to my normal work routine! Today's my off day and i'm supposed to start on my assignments... but i shall nap first, hehe :p Tataz!