Happy Bday Jiaying!! *beams* Byee grandma... *sobz*

07 Feb 2007, Wednesday
After the euphoria of Jiaying's Birthday Party and Bro Qiangfeng's wedding, Grandma's death comes as a shock. She leaves us at a ripe old age of 91. Received the news from my 2nd bro on Sunday noon, after waking up from my deep sleep at 3pm+. I won't pretend to say i'm feeling really aggrieved or something, for i was nvr really close to grandma, though full of respect for her for bringing up such fine uncles and aunties of mine. It was, however, heartwrenching to see mum and my (closest) Ah Yi catching glimpses at grandma's photo and fighting back their tears - They'd tried to look normal and cheerful in front of us. Anyway yesterday was at the funeral and talking nonsense to my cousins about some old army stuff, glad that they found it amusing but also wonder if it's right to make them laugh when all our 長輩s are grieving in their hearts. Honestly and personally though, if it was my own funeral i'd have wished to hear more laughter rather than feel the sadness from my friends and loved ones. My own experience when dad passed away in 1998 was, when my friends dropped by the funeral, i preferred to chat, talk nonsense and laugh along with them instead of showing them how sad and aggrieved i was feeling. They were like, saying "wah u still can laugh and smile now ah", and i said,"Hey, i'm glad u guys came to see me mah, i one person sad is good (or bad) enough, no need make u all feel more sorry for me than u are now!!" *smile*. It's true u know, even as the immediate family member of the deceased, it's bad to feel nothing but grave sadness and awkward to see uneasy faces around you throughout the few days and weeks. In fact, the sadness and emptiness lasts for months! It's important to know how to feel normal, and even more so treasure the people, the laughter and joy around you. Ppl around you can help by treating u more normally and less cautiously!! I still remember at Kuang's dad's funeral, i was also talking loads of nonsense and making NPS fellas laugh (softly though)... It really lightens up the mood, u see. Of course though, admittedly, supposedly, the feeling at a funeral should be sombre...... *sigh*

Today's snow-princess Jiaying's Birthday!! Happy Birthday Jiaying!!! You're one of the sweetest and most charming (though not pretty... Muahaha) girls i've ever met!! (i said "one of the" ok? Hahaha) How come u very good at making guys feel affection for u and adore u so much leh. Know u got lots of suitors but still, at 21yrs old u haven't started ur 初戀!? Very Niaoo(貓) and picky ah u~ Time to give them a chance lo... (Mic Mic) Lolzz :p Lucky me, not one of ur victims~ Hahaa ^^ By the way~ i've decided if tis year u haven't get hitched, i will start calling u 老處女!!! Hahahaa ~evil~*snorts wif laughter* k lah~~~ if 10-20yrs later we both are still single, then we 送做堆 bah, 算你賺到!!! Tat would conclude my life though... (Surname "Jiang" + "Xu" in hokkien = Kang Khor (艰苦) (We discussed tis before, remember? Lolzz :p)) Hahaa :p Joking la~ Like i've said, u r very 討人喜歡, Best of luck to you tis year~ No bad luck though u proclaim tis to be the suay year!! See how privileged u are... Since when, other ppl bday i suan so much de Ha ha ha :]